I have been really stressed latley over school. Things like can I do it? Will I be able to stick with it? Will my bipolar mess me up if I start to have an episode of
rapid cycling? Also Lafe is worried about the cost and going into debt, he worries will I be able to get work, will the jobs still be there with the changes in technology and the changes in computers. Mom worries about the debt too. The only one that is positive is my sister Theresa she thinks it is great also my mother in law Wanda. I haven't told my sister Mary Ellen yet so I don't know how she feels. I just know we have to do something before we loose the disability money that I get for my son. I have five years left for that. That is enough time to get my degree and start work. I am tired of being poor and not having any extra money. I have to use my spending allowence to pay for odd jobs around the house that I can't do. I get my nephew to do them. He is 15 and looking for some spending money and he does a great job. I don't mind paying him.
Lafe has been depressed latly too I worry about him. He is sick of his job at Sears and the things that he has to do and put up with. I know he would like to go back to school too he just can't decide what to do. I think he just needs to pick something and go for it. I think we both should go back to school I know online gives you the freedom to study when you can your not forced to be there at set times for a class. I don't see why we both couldn't go back to school and why he couldn't hold a job too and study after work. I know people do it and make it work I don't see why we can't do it too. Sure we would have debt but we would also be working in better jobs and making a heck of a lot more money. I say go for it. I'm ready. Bring it on.
WOW I feel much better now is that amazing what a little journaling can do. Just getting it off you chest makes the world of difference for me.
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